{"id":147,"date":"2021-02-20T20:46:56","date_gmt":"2021-02-20T20:46:56","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/?p=147"},"modified":"2021-02-20T20:46:58","modified_gmt":"2021-02-20T20:46:58","slug":"meme","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/?p=147","title":{"rendered":"meme"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<pre class=\"wp-block-verse\">there's a meme about grandmothers\nare you happy?\nare you fed?\nare you loved?\ni find it wonderful and\nabsurd\nwhy would anyone care\nif i am happy?\nif i am fed?\nif i am loved?\nhow much simpler\nit would have been\nif my father had\nsucceeded\nin cutting off my air\na little longer\nholding on\na little longer\nuntil\nno one else would have had to\nput up with me had to\nbe disappointed in me had to\nhate me\ni can't leave now\nthough\nwhat's the use of surviving\nif i'm only going to\ngo away again?\ni am not happy\nbut i can find\nhappiness\non my own\nin my own\nway\ni need a chance\nto feed myself\nan opportunity\nand then they can all breathe\na sigh of relief\n\"thank god she's gone\"\nand talk about me behind my back\nand lie to my face\n\"of course we love you\"\nand hate you and\nhumiliate you and\nstand aside while\nyou are hated and\nhumiliated\nthere's nothing pure\nin human affection\nit's crowded about\nwith insecurities\nand despair\nand unkept promises\ni'll take\nfriends over lovers\nlovers over family\ncats over everyone\nit makes me happy\nto make them happy\nit's what keeps me\nhere\nstill\ntrying<\/pre>\n\n\n\n<p>January 28, 2018<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>there&#8217;s a meme about grandmothers are you happy? are you&#8230;<\/p>\n<div class=\"more-link-wrapper\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/?p=147\">Continue Reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">meme<\/span> <i class=\"fas fa-angle-right\"><\/i><\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[10,2],"class_list":["post-147","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry","tag-10","tag-poetry","entry"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/147","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=147"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/147\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=147"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=147"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=147"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}