{"id":233,"date":"2021-03-11T10:37:32","date_gmt":"2021-03-11T15:37:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/?p=233"},"modified":"2024-08-13T14:17:01","modified_gmt":"2024-08-13T18:17:01","slug":"lucky-heart","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/?p=233","title":{"rendered":"lucky heart"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<pre class=\"wp-block-verse\">vivid is may<br>all those<br>five<br>point<br>five<br>years<br>ago.<br>layered over now<br>with flowers enameled<br>to a hard polish.<br>my life. the life i built.<br>i couldn't scratch the<br>surface of yours not with<br>my bone brittle finger-<br>nails.<br>i tried.<br>i daydreamed. could<br>i belong? could<br>i be a part of your<br>family? odd as<br>i am? as unlike you as<br>i am? your answer<br>blew cold in every<br>direction, every shutting<br>down, every shutting<br>out.<br><br>i can't belong if<br>i don't conform if<br>i can't stay silent if<br>i don't mouth the party<br>line. welp. i<br>couldn't i<br>wouldn't i<br>didn't\u00a0<br><br>and<br><br>you turned that<br>label inside<br>out. who am i?<br>nothing of yours.<br><br>i won't be cruel.<br>i won't be bitter.<br>you were right about<br>some things. there wasn't<br>enough love there for me.<br><br>my friends say not to think<br>about what you might say if<br>you could see what i've built,<br>who and how i love, where i work,<br>what i do. why should your opinion matter?<br><br>you summed it up in that ice<br>blue icing, written in those<br>whorled words, you're<br><br>you wrote<br><br>'You're a<br>shitty<br>sister.'<br><br>most people, i think, are born into their<br>families. the rest of us have to find them.<br><br>i found mine.<br><br>who's to say<br><br>who has the luckier<br>heart?<\/pre>\n\n\n\n<p>March 11, 2021<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>vivid is mayall thosefivepointfiveyearsago.layered over nowwith flowers enameledto a hard&#8230;<\/p>\n<div class=\"more-link-wrapper\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/?p=233\">Continue Reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">lucky heart<\/span> <i class=\"fas fa-angle-right\"><\/i><\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[6,2],"class_list":["post-233","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry","tag-6","tag-poetry","entry"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/233","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=233"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/233\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=233"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=233"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=233"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}