{"id":489,"date":"2021-11-26T10:05:16","date_gmt":"2021-11-26T15:05:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/?p=489"},"modified":"2021-12-05T08:52:32","modified_gmt":"2021-12-05T13:52:32","slug":"goddess","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/?p=489","title":{"rendered":"sundew"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<pre class=\"wp-block-verse\">when you say a woman is a goddess,\nremember that Eris was a goddess too.\n\nit's Thanksgiving and I'm thinking of\nmy mother, a woman so powerful\nshe traveled back in time to the\norigin of the human race and,\nPandora like, granted us a\ngift we never wanted: a\nfear of abandonment\nso strong we give\nup before we\ntry.\n\nbut\nunlike\nPandora,\nnaive and\ninnocent, my\nmother did\nit out of\nspite.\n\nshe\nwas\nborn a\nblack hole.\n\nnot a normal\nblack hole,\nor even a\nsuper\nmassive\nblack hole,\nbut the\nblack\nhole\nat\nthe\ncenter\nof the universe.\n\nshe was the Big Bang.\n\nshe was the originator\nwho became the\ndestroyer.\n\nshe consumes light,\nhope, little\ngirls.\n\nwhole worlds collapse.\n\nshe is the solar sundew,\nthe eater of flesh,\nbone,\nash.\n\nher leavings,\nlifeless\nspace\nbodies,\naimless\ncarcasses\n\nwho no longer remember\nwhere they came from,\n\nwho can no longer imagine\nwhere they're going.\n\ntrails of dead stars,\nfused relics of\nbase metals.\n\nshe's not like our ancestors,\nthe ancestors of mortals,\n\nshe's the ancestress of the\nneutron star that shines\nonly in death, bastard\nsmear of radiation\nfixed by the\neclipsing\neye of a\ncamera\nlost in\nspace.\n\nunrelenting.\npurposeless.\n\nthe cat that drops the mouse,\n\nstill\n\nwarm,\nshe keeps\nher hands in\ncarved out rib-\ncages, tent poled\nto hold up her fitted\nhide, a wicked pneuma\nexhaled over a blasted\nlandscape of calcaneus\nbones never lifted\nabove untrodden\npaths, leathery\nalveoli never\nfilled by\nthe\nonly\ninheritance\nwe were ever offered.\n\nwhy, she might have asked,\nneed they light when\nthey have no eyes?\n\nand she ate away the sun. \n\nwhy, she might have asked,\nneed they walk when \nthere is no path?\n\nand she ate away their feet.\n\nwhy, she might have asked,\nneed they speak,\nbreathe,\ncrash\nthrough,\nrupture,\nevolve,\nawaken,\nwhen\nno\nelementary\nparticle escapes\n\nthe spiraling drain,\nthe suffocating death,\nthe translucent fading\n\ninto a single dimension,\ninto an outline,\n\ninto an unlimned\nrepresentation\n\nof\nwhat\nnever was,\n\na remnant\n\nof\nwhat\nnever existed?\n\nand she gave birth to me.<\/pre>\n\n\n\n<p>November 26, 2021<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>when you say a woman is a goddess, remember that&#8230;<\/p>\n<div class=\"more-link-wrapper\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/?p=489\">Continue Reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">sundew<\/span> <i class=\"fas fa-angle-right\"><\/i><\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[6,2],"class_list":["post-489","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry","tag-6","tag-poetry","entry"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/489","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=489"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/489\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=489"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=489"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ajaxkallistrate.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=489"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}