enough

i may only be a nine out of a hundred
to the world, but i'm a nine out of
nine to me.

it may never be enough, but it's
everything i have.

i won't keep my head down anymore.
i won't do half the work of the bullies.
i get knocked down, laid low, flattened,
but

i can still look them in the eyes.
i can be afraid, but only of what's
in front of me and not of the end-
less reel in my head.

it's you, you know, who's changed me.
my buddy boy.

you're worth matching, you who walks
that clear stream where i can see
all the way to the bottom.

when i meet you where you are, i am
my best self.

that's where i want to be.
that's who i want to be.

it's never enough
for the world. but

it's enough
for me.

July 7, 2021